The importance of the past lives
I wonder how much stuff is stored in our subconscious mind? How many of our dreams, wishes and hopes are stopped or blocked because of the beliefs we once made? And we are wondering why we are not progressing, blaming ourselves for not dong this or doing that when in fact we did everything we could but the energy of the once made vows is the one pulling the strings from the deep abyss. But we can change it by tapping in to it and bringing it to our conscious mind and change it. It is not that difficult as it looks. All we need is a willingness and a good past life therapist.
It is a year and a half now since I have left my office job and started a long desired work as a healer and a teacher. It was not an easy decision in the time of recession and people not having money. My now ex boss asked me a hundred times if I am sure what I am doing and if I am going to be able to support myself and I said yes thinking if I am working for God I can truly trust all is going to be fine. Of course I had fear but the excitement was greater and I could not wait until the moment for me to say goodbye to my old job. Some cried, some envied me, some found me a loony. I did not care…all I wanted is for the world to know that I am free and can do what I always wanted and that is to HELP PEOPLE to understand their life path, mission and purpose and to be the Masters of their destiny.
The day I left my job and after having an emotional goodbye party, I went home with a knot in my solar plexus. When I came home in to my sanctuary I broke down and cried. I cried because I have left this familiar place and this familiar faces who became like my family after long 15 years. I cried because I had an enormous fear of the future and all that was known, comforting and secure was behind me. I knew I could always turn back and seek for help if needed but also deep down knew there is no turning back and I have entered my true destiny. I was entering on an uncharted path…
It was the beginning of June when I left and after having so many emotional and physical turmoil’s, I decided to have a good summer rest slowly making plans for the autumn and the work. After a few days of really enjoying myself, watching TV, doing nothing I started to have guilty feelings. I would wake up at my usual time around 6 AM, but then would go back to sleep after happy realization I do not have to go to the work anymore. At 10 AM I would drag myself out of the bed and until I had my coffee, breakfast and shower it would be already noon. 2 weeks went by and I had to realize I am still not comfortable in doing what I want to do and having a real lazy days. So I would clean my apartment over and over again finding dirty corners, cupboards or wardrobes just to make me busy.
Last weekend in June one of my girlfriends asked me if I would like to be a guest on her presentation and I said yes. After the event where I shortly presented myself and my work, I started to get phone calls from people asking for my services. I was delighted but not for a long time.
( Just to mention briefly that I did therapy work while was still at the company. But it was maybe one or two people weekly as I did not have much energy to share, due to my many obligations at the work. So I was not a beginner and already gained an amount of self confidence ). At that time I also had no working office and used my living room as a therapy room.
A few wonderful people from the presentation arrived and I was thrilled to have them as my clients. But then one after another, I’ve got 2 male clients ( what was very rare in my case ). One of them a very beautiful but very tormented soul said in one moment that he would love to kill or strangle someone now. You can just imagine how I felt in that moment, being completely alone with him in my apartment. I asked the Spirit for help and tried to reassure the client about the idea. After a few minutes he calmed down and said he would not do it anyway, but sometimes he had this inner urge to do it.
The second male was a soul split between the religious and spiritual beliefs. He told me he was aware of his past lives where he was a very evil person and he is fighting it now with the help of Jesus. I could truly feel this darkness inside of him.
At the top of all, he had two different eye colors. One was blue and the other brownish and it amplified even more this strange energy he had. I could not wait for him to leave my room.
It was for the first time that I asked myself what in the earth have I done to myself. I could not imagine working with the kind of people I mentioned and I asked Spirit for help. This is when the fear started to crawl in…continues